This world we live in is a scary place. It seems to get worse every day. You look at the news and the bad stuff seems to effect everyone. Whether you were involved or not. For some people their lives were turned upside down. People did bad things to them. They were hurt. Thier families were hurt. We live in a world that want to drown us in hurt. We feel pushed down and don’t have the strength to get up. We just wish we could start over again. Be someone else. Or just be who we were. There was a boy who a molester had kidnapped. He was rescued, but he told the police. “I wish i could be me again.” Before he had been kidnapped. What the man had done to him. It changed him. Effected him and he couldn’t be the same. That is how so many people feel. Life throws such chaos at us.
When we carry so much baggage around it weighs us down and effect every part of our lives and makes it to where we can’t enjoy anything any more. Like a constant cloud overhead. It shadows everything we do and think. It makes us feel different. Disconnected from others. Like we don’t fit in. That no one can understand. Or that everyone will judge you or look at you weird or with pity.
Okay, so what do you do. This is what Christianity is good at. The whole point is that you are a new creature in Christ. When you are baptized you are born anew. A new person. A new life to start again. You do have the choice to set the baggage down. If you find the right church, the people will be excepting, not judging. As the Bible says, Judge and you will be judge.” So we Christians don’t judge, we all have our skeletons in our closets we don’t want God to point out on judgment day.
God loves you, damage and all. He can help you heal. It does take time. But it is real. You may be thinking “You don’t know what i’ve done, or You don’t know what was done to me.” You would be right.
God does. He can help you. Doesn’t matter what it was. He knows you. Every hair on your head. Every thought you have. Are you mad? Do you think really bad things about what happened? Are you mad at God? Tell him. Yell at him. That can start your relationship. He already knows how you feel. He is a big boy, he can handle it. Scream and cuss at him if you want. Just open that door and let him start working in your life.
So often when we face tragedy in life, we get to the point where we feel unloveable. For some reason, we feel so separated that we feel no one can understand us therefore no one can love us. At least not the “real”. You know what i mean. We feel like we wear a mask. We hide our true feelings. We go through motions sometimes. We feel alone even when we are in a crowd of friends. Then we go home and take off the mask. When we are alone and we feel the most like ourselves. The self that no one else really gets. God gets it. God knows you. He loves you, even under the mask. He know the very nature of your heart. The reasons you feel the way you do. He wants to help you understand those feelings and help you feel his love for you.
Christianity was once described as an ocean. It is always there. You can start by dipping your toes into the water and then your feet. If it feels weird or frightening you can pull your feet back out. But it is always there. When you are ready to dip back in. God is not going anywhere. He is waiting. He will listen. He will show his love. If you choose to turn away you can. He will still be there. He is patient. Love endures forever. His is a perfect love. Give it a chance.